...about keeping up with this!  So, let's see what's new...  My friend Amber is coming to visit in 3 days!!!  She's considering moving here, so that would be pretty cool.  I said before, me single is a BIG flirt.  I've been talking to a few people and I honestly am starting to feel more like myself.  It's also raised my standards a bit, and I don't feel like I need to rush or find someone and I can be happy just being single for awhile!!

I started at the gym Friday.  I worked out Friday, Saturday, then went to Church on Sunday.  I know, me - Church.  But I really want to start going again and I enjoyed it.  I'm about to head to the gym right now, and I'm glad I'm staying on track with that.  I've also been tanning every day after working out (after my shower of course).  Hopefully I will have a tan before long!  It's definitely worth my $20 a month.

I also start a steady babysitting job on Thursday.  It will be a hectic day.  Wake up at 7, workout and tan at 9, have lunch, work 12:45-6:30, head straight to the airport, straight back (3 hours roundtrip).  It's going to be a very long day, must buy energy drinks for the drive!!!  I will be making enough to pay my bills now, which I am very happy about!  Then I still have my financial aid leftover for things like food and gas.  I would love to get a night shift job in addition, for the extra things, but I'm just glad to have enough to make it through things!!!

I asked Jen to make matching hats for Amber and her little girl.  I know she's going to love it.  I won't have time to stop by when we go to the airport to pick her up (well, me I guess not we yet) but we'll stop by before we go to the airport on the way back.  She's amazing... and I'm not surprised she has had so many requests since she started!!

Also, my landlord/roommate - his girlfriend may be moving in soon.  Which I think is great!  I like her, she's really great, so I am looking forward to that!!  Also, if Amber decides to rent out one of the other rooms, that would be great.  I love being around people.

Time to hit the gym, I'll be around more often now!!

I haven't said much about my friend Josh.  He's younger... he's 18.  I guess 4 years isn't that bad, but I'm cautious about it.  I'm starting to have feelings for him.  CRAP.

So I have been a little bit of a flirt.  Me single is VERY different from me committed.  Anyway, I had a date last night.  I didn't know it was a date, I thought it was just hanging out until he paid then I realized!  I don't by any means want to be in a relationship for a long time, but I am going to try to enjoy myself and get out and meet people and have fun.

I am excited about a few things though.  I'm going to join a gym, which is only $20 a month and includes unlimited tanning.  Also, I got a new siggy and I love it :)



I'm babysitting soon, and hopefully I can find a more steady job soon.

I have to have all of my wisdom teeth removed.  I'm hoping my dad can help me with the cost, so I can at least get the first one (the one causing problems) taken care of, then save up money for the rest.  Will figure it out soon...

Well, first off, I enjoyed my weekend with Jenn.  BUT - it ended badly.  Johnny, the love of my life, my fiance... yeah, he left me.  I wasn't even home yet.  I was 30 min away from Easley, and he TEXT me.  Had to beg him to call me.  And it devastated me.  I can't even talk about it.  I had a few people who were there for me, and there's not much else I can say right now.

One of my best friends is coming out to visit in a week and a half.  If she can, she may end up moving out here.  It would be nice.  Maybe I could bring Xander out sooner, and we could babysit for each other.  It would be good for both of us, I think.  I don't know, we'll see.

It's been awhile!  I was having a REALLY hard time that I haven't seen Johnny in awhile.  We have talked a little, and while it sucks I really shouldn't be concerned about our relationship.  So I'm going to use my time to act my age!!  I'm going out with Jenn tonight :)  It's going to be a 2-hour drive, so I made a playlist that's about an hour and a half.  Should last me pretty well.  That's another new thing... my car.  It's not exactly mine yet, but once I save up the money it will be.  For now it's a "loaner".

To get ready for tonight, I did a few things.  New outfit and shoes last night, plus I got my GTL on :)  It was my first ever spray tan and was an odd experience!  It's not a HUGE difference, but for as pale as I was it was good enough for me :)  I think I may stick to beds from now on though.  There's something relaxing about laying down in a tanning bed uninterrupted for 20-30 minutes.  I have to take a shower in a few hours to get any excess left off, but you have to wait 4 hours so I can't get in until 1:30.

I'll post some before and after pics, including my new outfit later - but for now here is the car...












**ETA: Adding the pictures!

How pale I normally am...



The outfit...





The shoes...