•4/04/2011 10:52:00 AM
I had a great visit with Amber. I was sad to see her go. The funny part is, she was dead-set on moving here the moment she got off the plane. She just fell in love with this place. I was hoping she would. I didn't really keep up with working out or tanning while she was here. I'm getting back into it though. Today is technically my first day back since the 24th - with the exception of one morning that I did make it to the gym while she was here. She's been back in Arizona for almost a week now. It was a difficult adjustment.
I have been babysitting for a little over a week now. It's not a lot of money, but it pays the bills for now. I would love to pick up a graveyard shift job so I can babysit and pull in some extra hours at night. Would be a huge help... But for now it works.
As far as John goes (my son's father), there has been nothing but drama. First, a little background. He treated me pretty badly the 3 years we were together. Was very disrespectful to me as a person. We split for the last time January 2010. I have never asked for anything (our son is 2 1/2 now), never filed for child support or custody. I happen to be, quite recently, friends with his wife's ex-husband. Playing with fire, I know. Well, we were on the phone the other night and he puts his wife's brother on the phone, who proceeds to tell me I'm being disrespectful to John and his wife by talking to Shane. I didn't say a word until he gave the phone back to John. I said that I don't ever want to hear about being disrespectful to John when after everything I never filed for child support or custody or asked for a damn thing from him. That apparently, in his mind, was motivation for him to threaten me. He said he would tell my mom I mixed drugs with alcohol (which I didn't) to try to get her to go after custody of my son, that he would sign over his rights to make it easier for her. I am saving all the texts with him saying he would sign off his rights. It breaks my heart for Xander. Out of respect for John, I gave him his last name. So he will have his "dad's" last name but not have a father? And if John thinks he will have any contact with Xander once he signs off his rights, even when he is 18, he has another thing coming. I will make sure Xander knows he willingly disowned his only son.
So... Shane is actually coming out here to visit and look for a job. He's wanting to move back to the Carolinas, so we'll see what happens. I'm not putting "all my eggs in one basket". I'm not attaching myself to anyone, but he's a good friend to have. I've continued to go on dates, get to know people, and try to figure out what I want. I'm focusing on myself.
I'm coming into the homestretch of the semester - my final semester at Arizona State University. I'm hoping to improve my GPA from the 2.2 it's at now, but if not I will be working my butt off in the Fall at Midlands (community college here in Columbia). I'm hoping I can transfer to USC by Spring, or Fall 2012 at the latest. It was why I originally wanted to move out here!
In the spirit of getting back into the swing of things, I'm going to have some breakfast/lunch and get ready to head to the gym. Need to get a little GTL going today. Should start cleaning too, since Shane will be here Thursday night. My only days to really clean are today and Tuesday. I work Wednesday, and Thursday - then straight to the airport.
I have been babysitting for a little over a week now. It's not a lot of money, but it pays the bills for now. I would love to pick up a graveyard shift job so I can babysit and pull in some extra hours at night. Would be a huge help... But for now it works.
As far as John goes (my son's father), there has been nothing but drama. First, a little background. He treated me pretty badly the 3 years we were together. Was very disrespectful to me as a person. We split for the last time January 2010. I have never asked for anything (our son is 2 1/2 now), never filed for child support or custody. I happen to be, quite recently, friends with his wife's ex-husband. Playing with fire, I know. Well, we were on the phone the other night and he puts his wife's brother on the phone, who proceeds to tell me I'm being disrespectful to John and his wife by talking to Shane. I didn't say a word until he gave the phone back to John. I said that I don't ever want to hear about being disrespectful to John when after everything I never filed for child support or custody or asked for a damn thing from him. That apparently, in his mind, was motivation for him to threaten me. He said he would tell my mom I mixed drugs with alcohol (which I didn't) to try to get her to go after custody of my son, that he would sign over his rights to make it easier for her. I am saving all the texts with him saying he would sign off his rights. It breaks my heart for Xander. Out of respect for John, I gave him his last name. So he will have his "dad's" last name but not have a father? And if John thinks he will have any contact with Xander once he signs off his rights, even when he is 18, he has another thing coming. I will make sure Xander knows he willingly disowned his only son.
So... Shane is actually coming out here to visit and look for a job. He's wanting to move back to the Carolinas, so we'll see what happens. I'm not putting "all my eggs in one basket". I'm not attaching myself to anyone, but he's a good friend to have. I've continued to go on dates, get to know people, and try to figure out what I want. I'm focusing on myself.
I'm coming into the homestretch of the semester - my final semester at Arizona State University. I'm hoping to improve my GPA from the 2.2 it's at now, but if not I will be working my butt off in the Fall at Midlands (community college here in Columbia). I'm hoping I can transfer to USC by Spring, or Fall 2012 at the latest. It was why I originally wanted to move out here!
In the spirit of getting back into the swing of things, I'm going to have some breakfast/lunch and get ready to head to the gym. Need to get a little GTL going today. Should start cleaning too, since Shane will be here Thursday night. My only days to really clean are today and Tuesday. I work Wednesday, and Thursday - then straight to the airport.
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