Sometimes it takes giving up everything you know to get a new start, and make a better life for yourself.  Of course, in my case, it's about more than just me.  It's about my son, too.  Staying longer in Arizona would be easier, but we need a new start.  I don't want us to be stuck here forever.  The hardest part is having to be away from my son for 4 months.  He's been all I've had for the past 2 years, the only person I've ever loved this way.  I've been selfish and not had to share him with his dad.  It's just been me and him.  Now, until I can get a job and create a stable environment for him in South Carolina - he will be staying with my mom and sister, the only other people he's grown up knowing as his family.  Am I doing the right thing?  I think so.  Am I sure?  Of course not.  But I could not forgive myself for dragging him out here just to have to go back if it doesn't work out.  I bought a webcam for my mom, so I can see him everyday - but the separation anxiety is overwhelming.  I leave tomorrow morning, to fly from Phoenix to Columbia.  I hope I can get a job quickly and get life started for us.  24 hours from now, I'll be boarding my plane at the Phoenix Sky Harbor airport.  Until then, I am soaking up every moment I can with my sweet baby boy, who is just growing so quickly.