First off, I haven't heard back from that woman about the job. Maybe she found someone else, I don't know. So I've continued to look for weekend or part-time work. I want to get this car paid off and get my own place.

Last night APPARENTLY Shane got arrested for something he didn't do. I won't get into details, but someone put something stolen in his car and reported it stolen at a time when he knew Shane would be driving the car. That's all I know, and I haven't heard from him or anyone since. Then, my so-called best friend was supposed to spend this week with me. She spent the last week with her so-called boyfriend. Because he "doesn't want her to" she decided to tell me she isn't coming. She supposedly was going to spend today with me, yet it's already 1pm and at this rate if she DOES show up it'll be for about an hour. NOT worth it. So not only has she blown me off for a guy yet again, but she's decided to marry him - another man who, like Brandon, will keep her from her friends. If she thinks I'm still getting an apartment with her NOW, she is out of her damn mind!!

I did get to talk to my son - the one good thing that happened today. My dad sent me an Amazon gift card for Mother's Day. The only time I was happy today was talking to my mom, my son, and being at church this morning.

In addition to all of this, while I have never been formally diagnosed with bipolar anyone who knows me even a little bit knows I have it. I go through such extremes. I'm trying to put some money together to go see someone, see if I need medication, counseling, etc. I just don't want to feel like this, I want to be myself without the intense mood swings. I'm going to call the Lexington office tomorrow and see what I can do. I don't have health insurance here, so I'll have to see about that first and what it will cost with self-pay. I'm afraid of the cost.

On a brighter note, I hope all the mothers in my life and in the world have a wonderful day with their families.