It was a long night.  It's always really hard for me to fall asleep after Johnny leaves.  I'm usually okay by lunchtime the next day, it's just hard - wanting to wake up next to him, and knowing I have 3 1/2 more months before that can happen.  I think it's going to be a bigger adjustment for him, to being married, than for me.  I've done it (sort of) before.  I was the good little housewife, cooking and cleaning and taking care of the baby.  He's only had to be accountable to himself.  I have no doubt that he can do it, I just wonder what it will be like.  I know he has to go out of town a few weeks after we get married, and I'm already not looking forward to that.  It will probably be one of the longest weeks (okay, 4 days) of my life.

Lunchtime again... hopefully I will be able to get all of homework done today, without staying up late again.  I'm really looking forward to Saturday, and seeing him again.  I just have the best feeling about us, and no matter what challenges keep coming p - I know it's right, and it's real, and it is really going to last this time.