I'm a little stressed out right now.  Johnny was supposed to come over either tonight, or tomorrow - but I haven't heard from him since Thursday night.  On top of that, there's a lot of stuff about the wedding that I need to talk to him about either tonight or tomorrow - about what needs to get done this month.  I am so overwhelmed.  On top of still needing to come up with $300 by May, I still have to keep up with my schoolwork and keep this wedding together.  I have half a mind to just go to a judge right now, but I know it will be worth it in the end.  I just wish it was a little less stressful!  Or that we could talk more, so I wouldn't feel like I'm doing this completely by myself.  I really hope I do see him tonight, because I don't know how much more I can handle without talking to him.  Even just a text would make me feel better right now.  And yeah, it may be a little paranoid, but the wedding is in 3 1/2 months.  He could always change his mind in that time, and that is at the back of my mind too.  I really need to get out of this house, for my own sanity, and I need to talk to and see him soon.